Today

Wolves

I returned to the shack
Closed the door behind me
Lit the fire
I was back
I was me
My masks hanging on the walls like
Trophies
All those sad and sick masks
Reminders of who I've been
Time after time

I'm running out of the reasons to be sad
I love my new self-confined freedom
I don't even mind the loneliness outside
The cold thick snow
Does not bother me at all

Magical mind
Believing in communication of eyes
Heart can always open more
When you don't expect it
When you wait for it for ages
Anytime

Limits and boundaries
Words of endless possibilities
Outlining new worlds
Never entered before
Just by occasional
wolves

Plain (I'm Telling You)

Plain
but warm-hearted to the core
I'm telling you
my palms will grow trees
eventually

Smiling
in a self-mocking way
I'm telling you
Hope is raising off
the earth
like heat off
sun-baked
pavement

Up and up and
up

Peering
up from the tree house
you still might squint your eyes in disbelief
But I'm telling you
Life is s gift
strong as a ship
of steel
and has just knocked me off my
feet.
How lovely
this defeat.

A Head-dress of Feathers

I want a
head-dress of feathers
like hers

Time passes in the river
I'm restless
I quiver
My fingers are long
and longer
touch the foreign soil
grow under

Maybe you forgot
but I never did

I wear a head-dress
of feathers
and battle the wind
with eye-lashes
I dance on smooth stones
I carry large weight

Something is burning
pounding
in the rhythm of the heart
this land is too wide
for just sitting still

I wear a headress of feathers
I walk in the dark
I go on one foot
I march like a crowd
I read from a map
I read from the stars
our footprints are crossing
a numerous times
I wear a head-dress
of feathers
just like she does

Maybe you forgot
but we never did
this land is too wide
for just sitting still

Wind, give me
Strength.
Amen.

Invited

I try so hard not to let you enter
my deepest dreams
but what are my dreams worth
if I can't tell you
over a morning cup of coffee
over a night spent lying next your
beautiful body
over a faint kiss in the park
what are my dreams worth
when you can't remind me
in all that chaos of my heart...

I'm starting to dream you again
You're somewhere out there
in winter
in the garden
under the balcony
in my backyard
Tonight I won't let you go
back into the orange circle of the sun
Tonight I'm undone
and you're in-
vited.

Keeper of the Flame

I'm trying to be as transparent
as possible
want to kiss you
but I'll be a good girl
shut my urges to my drawer
along with my mug
yesterday half-full
today half-empty
don't cross your arms
against me
I'm silent
cause you want me to
I'm laughing
cause I'm wanting to
Your life's unfolding
mine's a flying carpet
I roll under my arm
If I'm a burning bush
then you're the kindling
burning under.

I wrap myself in my Mexican blanket
and keep on walking
through the dust
right into the sun
(Bless you
and bless us,
all.)

I haven't posted for a long time and I as well might do...

Shy out of the window

The light I project on your face
Shows your seasonal scars
plenty
You drive your car
Like suicide
Shy out of the window
Shame air-conditioned

You scream yourself out of
Here and now
Out of the river of crime
Meandering through our times

You’re too smart to keep still
Distrustful to peaceful pills
Will I ever hold on to anything
Darling, you’re my last safety pin.

The calligraphy in your eye reads
I’m not afraid to die
And I am plenty
I hang on to your sleeve
Like suicide
Shy out of the window
Shame air-conditioned

I scream myself out of
Here and now
Out of the river of crime
Meandering through our times

I murdered my innocent girl
Here and now
You said
There’s a river of crime
Meandering through our times
The blood is yours
and mine.